Friday, November 30, 2007
So we took the girls to the zoo last weekend to see all their favorite animals. We had a great time as usual, but this trip I really enjoyed the gorilla house because there was a really nice docent on duty who was willing to talk about all the gorillas and share about their history. I think the part I liked best was when she pointed to one young female and said "this little girl was delivered by c-section because her mother developed preeclampsia during her pregnancy." Because I also suffered from preeclampia and had to have a c-section, I felt weirdly connected to this gorilla mother. And, somehow knowing that gorillas can develop preeclampsia made me feel better about my own pregnancy. I know intellectually that my own issues weren't my fault, but there is always the voice in my head that says "if you'd only done ____, your pregnancy would have turned out better. Your girls would have been healthier." Knowing that gorillas can also have pregnancy complications reinforced that its just something that happens, something that is part of the reproductive process. Am I totally weird?